Why am I a Christian?

No secret, I am a Christian. Proud to say it, Love to be it.

Then I guess, the question I should ask myself and why some of you may be asking,is, why? What made me become a Christian, and what makes me remain as one?

Background info. will be presented first of course, heheh. I am a Fourth-Generation Christian, and was born to parents who are Christians. So i was pretty much exposed to the Word since I was born. Of course, being born into a Christian family does not make me a Christian, because the issue of religion is obviously not like the issue of race. You don't inherit Christianity; you seek it. I would say I accepted the Lord when i was 7 years old. Before that I believed in Jesus and all, but I never really committed it entirely. Even if I did from 0-7 years old, i dont think i would have meant it whole-heartedly because i was so small anyway.

So.. why?

Its too complex to list it down clearly and in a "structure". So i'll just rant on and on-like i usually do. Firstly, I need God. In times of trouble, God has proven to be a source of strength, and everlasting one, for that matter. There is not much strength in my character, if you ask me, but when I choose to rely on God, I feel a deep sense of assurance and courage I don't get elsewhere. The concept of God is one where there is this Super, Mighty and All-Powerful being that exists. To know that there is this God sooooo powerful, that he can move the mountains when He wants to, is the most assuring feeling on this planet, on in the universe for that matter.

When I'm weak, tired and down, I can restore my strength in the Lord. For non-christians, they may seem all gibberish. But I can honestly testify that everytime i read the word of God with an open heart and am willing to let God take my troubles off my shoulders and help me along, I feel rejuvenated, refreshed. It is to the extent that even physical tiredness can disappear into thin air. yes, the spirit is indeed more powerful than the flesh.

I always wonder to myself, for people with no religion- How do they survive? Nothing on this earth can give a person the strength required to overcome all troubles in the world. So sometimes, i do admire non-christians for their strength in character. But of course, I still maintain the belief that God and Jesus exists. Because our maker exists, we just cannot turn away from Him. It's like turning away from your parents- you're just not supposed to do it. It's not about right and wrong anymore. It's just totally not what humans should be doing.

Then of course people ask me how I know God is real. I'm a person that will not stand for something I don't believe in. But yes, I'm convicted God is real. And He's watching me write this now, and definitely watching you when you read this. I've felt God. In campFREE two years ago, during the final day of worship, as everyone was praying and worshipping, and the Holy Spirit was moving, I knew God touched my heart that night. I couldn't stop crying, and I just wept on the floor. Because it was as if..I don't know why i cried. It's just that when you're in God's prescence you are in awe of his majesty, and just in awe of Him. And you feel guilty too, because you know all the wrongs you have done. And as I cried, I just felt a great longing for the Lord. I don't know if it was a vision, but when I cried, I remember I saw a door. And the Lord told me, to open it. It was the door to a life with Him, for Him and through him. That night comes to my mind occasionally, and that love that He showered upon me that night confirmed to me one thing- that the Lord is real, and He lives within His children.

Faith is more than belief. It is more than trust. People can come up to me and tell me and reason to me, with questions like ," why are htere still natural disasters?" "why are some christians murderers?" or "why does God allow evil?".. but I still choose to believe, because I feel the Lord in me. I know He is real. And this belief and faith is the most amazing feeling and conviction one can ever hope for in this life.

When I was younger, I used to think "logically". that means I use to reason with myself, on why God was true. For example, the notion of perfection in us, imperfect humans, means that there must be something perfect in the universe, because nothinng on earth is perfect and yet we understand perfection. So that means there is a God. I also used to reason with things like the Earth can't just happen and exist and thus there must be a God.

But i've learnt that sometimes reasoning leads you no where. Non-Christians can reason and put Christianity down with all arguments (which i think is necessary if they really want to explore the idea of Christianity), but at the end of the day, the question all of us must ask ourselves, is whether any of those arguments or concepts that we speak of has made us fulfilled and satisfied with life.

Nothing on this earth will satisfy humans. No material wealth can bring eternal joy. That is another reason why I believe in God. Only He can satisfy my soul. I'm not saying i don't complain and what not, because I still have human nature in me. But when I worship the Lord and am praying, sometimes I just have this feeling that I don't ever want to let go of the Bible, that I just wanna find the Lord and fall into his arms, and stay with Him forever. Has anything else made me feel this way? No. ONly the Lord can satisfy.

Are you satisfied with your life? If no, then do you think that if I give you a million dollars now, you will be satisfied? What if I gave you 10 wishes for anything in the world. What can you wish for to make you satisfied, eternally satisfied and fulfilled?

If you are satisfied, then I would like to ask, where do you think you'll go after life on earth? Do we just vapourise into thin air? Does life just end?

For non-christians, the notion of vaporising into thin air may sound pretty right. But no one can deny that we have souls. The issue of morality, why all humans (at least most) have a conscience, and why we fell happiness, guilt, blah blah..
It's because we have feelings. And do feeligns just come from the brain? It can't! It comes from the soul too. There must be something that is not matter, inside us, that makes us different from animals. If that is the case, then when we die, our soul has to go somewhere!

For me, I'm sending my soul to heaven. And on that day when I stand in God's prescence, I will smile and rejoice like never before.

I just can't imagine not being a Christian. How can I put behind a God who doesn't need me, but yet still is willing to love me?

Why am I a Christian?
Ans: God is real, and He lives in me. I know it, I feel Him, and I can't stop this belief. He loves me more than anyone can ever love me. What more can I ask for?